OY... so it begins.

I am hoping that I am the only one reading this silliness, hence the longest URL ever.

But I have come to a huge rut in life! I bought myself some moleskins to use as my journals but find it impossible to write in the impeccably perfect pages. So I have resorted to blogging... but blogging for myself cause I need a change.

Change? Hmm... yes a CHANGE!

At the ripe ol' age of 22, I am jobless, hoping to get into grad school, found my perfect better half, and hoping that I will accomplish something?!

Gosh, here I thought going and graduating from college is the hard part and getting a job was a breeze... well it was until my summer of unfortunate incidents happened (cue two months of training for a job I was then laid off of two weeks in, worst of the worst rear ended-ness, why do people not have documents!??!!?, the end of my two years at my happy non-profit job, and one cute pink broken computer later)

Job hunting commenced, so did contacting insurance people, wrapping up my final annual report and here I am in a hazy daze feeling unaccomplished and a little worst for wear. But a little better cause the boyfriend bought me a replacement computer henceeeee this is all possible cause of him!

I made a promise earlier this year, that I was going to be a better person. I don't think I have made good on that promise so far (even though its an on-going thing).

So I am gonna make some changes... sadly I will note them here to help myself enforce them because damn, I have just been all sorts of a mess lately.

1. Eat better and not too much (I have come to notice my body does not take a three course meal with a side of footlong chili cheese dog too kindly anymore)
-Must eat breakfast
-No more late night snacking
-PORTION CONTROL MAN!

2. Better spending and saving habits. Why is that my savings is not bursting with some monies when my only real expenses lately is gas and food.... YESSSS the perks of living with my parents mean rent and phone free, but the house is slowly turning into Asian Hotel Land, where people come to stay with us and never leave.
-Since unemployment happened, pinch and scrimp the rest of my rainy day fund making that ish last till I find some employment damn!
-No more online shopping. Superman has his kryptonite and I have.... my wallet emptying-love of all things cute-fricking no sense of real money delusion when it comes to just clicking that damn CHECKOUT button. Love/ hate relationship with online shopping. I love it but it hates me and robs me cause I have no self control. Game over kiddies, I am poor now.
-No more eating out and spending ridiculous amounts of money... bowl of rice and Vietnamese sweet sausage>the 3 dozen oysters and some margaritas/beers/all things good in the food world. :'(

3. Be nicer to my parents/family (this should be at the top but I am going by whats coming to me at the moment)
-DUH.

4. Do special things for the boyfriend. Friends too. (also should kinda be at the top too, but all that talk about the shit summer of '11, got me on a negative tangent)
-also DUH!

Sooooo yeah those are all the less concrete goals things you strive for but aren't as easily measured or accounted for... here are some changes that I can make and be responsible for.

5. Run, in the morning. Ugly running face and all....

6. Wake up at 8 am, at the latest.

7. Sleep before 12. Yes I have no life, no I don't go out much. I maxed out my crazy days in college.

8. One day of the week should be devoted to all things Mai Likes. (we'll get into that later maybe....)

9. Dress better. I'm going through some things and man, has it reflected in my clothes.

10. Better daily habits
-Vitamins!
-Washing face
-No make up days
-No more late nights of nothingness
-Better routine for morning and night
-Trim bangs...

11. When I feel like a Grouchy McMean pants... JUST DON'T DO IT.

12. Sleep with my Sleepy Sounds App, not Hulu on auto play<-cause of death for my pink computer. If I break this one I don't think boyfriend will get me another... :-<

13. Keep room clean. Office too for that matter.

There... that's all I got! No picture for this post, maybe next time.

Well the journey begins.... I think the hardest thing is the running and food control. Maybe daily habits too! I don't know. I do know that I can make a situation better. So the start of this 30 day challenge (which will hopefully extend lifestyle changes... but baby steps here people!)

Oy so the journey of this unemployed, weirdo begins.

-Mai